This week I’m going to North Carolina for two reasons: 1) to see my best friend graduate from acupuncture school (congrats, K!), and 2) to get my stuff out of storage. In the interim I have research assignments to submit for the two classes I’m taking. Needless to say, I am stressed.
The goal is keep things I want, that will fit in my car, and get rid of everything else. Not easy decisions to make, though I am fairly good at getting rid of extraneous belongings. But given that this is all of my stuff, everything that’s not with me now, including things Mom gave me, and pictures of her… well, I don’t expect it to be a fast and easy task. I just want to get this over with.
In other news, I learned so much from my gut health nutrition class this past weekend, and I cannot wait to implement what I’ve learned. If a person has recurring problems of any kind, whatever the problem is, most likely it can be traced back to issues in the gut. You are what you eat, literally—and you’re also what your mother ate. It’s all about the microbiome, which supports the immune system. It makes sense. Garbage in, garbage out. Unhealthy food goes in, disease comes out. I could go on and on about this, but that’s for a different blog. The main thing I got out of it was the relation of gut-brain health, and how food affects a person’s mood, that a person can impact their mood by changing the way they eat. How would that impact a person who has, for example, bipolar disorder?
I want so badly to mail a copy of my professor’s book along with a protocol to my ex-boyfriend with a request for him to try it and get back to me to let me know how it worked. I just know it would help. I won’t do it right now, but if I get any sign from my higher power to do so, I absolutely will. If nothing else, I can use this information to help other people experiencing anxiety and depression. It kills me to think of all the suffering we put ourselves through when there’s a solution right under our noses that we’re not utilizing. It’s simple but not easy, yet it’s here. My ex, for example, has gut issues, which I believe are the cause of his mood disorder. How many others with mood disorders or even just low-grade depression also have other symptoms? I bet 100%. Who doesn’t have some kind of symptom, especially once we start paying attention to our bodies, and especially once we reach our 20s, and even more so when we get into our 30s and beyond. Not that we don’t have symptoms younger than that. Maybe an athlete who eats well and exercises regularly gets a sports injury unrelated to gut health, but let’s be real. How many of us live like that?
I don’t know what the point of this blog post is, just that I want to write this morning before I go to work, and I figure maybe y’all are tired of reading about my mom and my ex. The good news is that good can come out of the saddest events in our lives. I’m learning about vitamins, minerals, and herbs that can help prevent or improve hypertension (which can lead to a stroke, which my mom had and died, for those of you who are new to this blog) as well as what a person can do to improve not just their physical health, but their mental health (having just come out of a relationship with a person who has bipolar disorder, who I still love very much).
I believe in God, and that everything happens the way it’s meant to. I don’t always get what I want, but I can look at whatever situation I’m in and ask, What can I learn from this? I’m still heartbroken, but things did not work out the way I thought they should for a reason. Maybe in the long run this is better for me though it may not feel like it now.
Maybe I can teach others about hypertension (which I don’t think enough people pay attention to, including doctors) and how to prevent stroke and diabetes (which my dad has), and possibly how to manage one’s mental health. It pains me that I didn’t have this information before my mom got hypertension, or before my ex left me. But then, would they have listened to me? Would I have searched for that information or even paid attention to it had I not experienced it from my relationship with them? Most of us do what we want to do, when we’re ready to do it. Hopefully by the time a client comes to see me, they are ready to change their lifestyle, and my goal is to help them do that. I’m still in the process of doing this for myself, and if I can do it, anyone can. I have the willpower and self-discipline of… a baby, or an animal. Or a baby animal. You catch my drift.
For some reason I’m listening to Neko Case again a lot lately, so I’ll leave you with this Sarah Vaughn cover she sings: